Writing and photography by Despina Michailidis.
Brainstorming with SÅANA Yoga
Facilitating a future vision brainstorming session for SÅANA Yoga.
Dichotomy of Love
One beautiful summer night last year, I took a walk with my cousins and bitched to them about someone who I felt was doing me wrong. My wise-as-fuck cousin stopped me and said:
Simon’s Favourite Gluten Free Chocolate Chip Cookies!
About 15 years ago — long before gluten-free everything was in fashion — I stopped being able to digest anything. Anytime I ate or even drank a glass of water, I had horrible nausea and acid reflux, but if I didn’t eat it got worse. Doctor visit after doctor visit heralded me a new prescription to treat the acid but nothing ever got better. A year later I went to get an endoscopy done to see if I had ulcers. Although the test came back negative, the doctor did tell me that the acid had caused lesions in my esophagus and stomach. The cure: more prescriptions that didn’t work.
Truth — a Poem from Unlove
The truth is you never loved me.
The Case of the Invisible Girl
I don’t know when it started exactly, but at some point in my early 20’s I started hiding from the world bit by bit. Friends would ask me out and more-often-than-not call and I would cancel at the last minute. As the years progressed, I started hiding more and more. It got so bad, that in my 30’s, I literally started feeling invisible to people. I’ll never forget going to a friends yearly open house and someone who I knew from attending the last 3 years in a row asked “have we met?” She had no clue who I was!
Time to Take Up More Space
I was re-reading one of my blogposts when something struck me and not in a good way.
My weight has pretty much always been an issue. Sometimes the issue was real and sometimes not. Each decade seems to have brought on another dilemma that I had little to no tools to deal with.
Happy Birthday to Me!
I’ve never been the type of woman who hides her age or shaves 5 years off the real number. Likely because for the last 30 years I’ve continued to feel like I’m still 16 — just ask anyone who knows me — so the real number really never bothered me.
I’ve Got the Power
I don’t know what it is about yoga but I can definitively say with the utmost confidence that I should never be without it!
Dear Summer of 2014
I don’t remember what was on my mind early in the day on June 7th, 2014. Probably a gluten-free beer run in preparation for my aunt’s upcoming birthday party. I’m sure I was doing some lamenting about how my boyfriend’s visit to Toronto was quickly coming to an end. I was likely making up my to-do list for our upcoming trip to San Francisco. I wasn’t sure if I could fit in just one more yoga class before we both left. What I am sure of: at no point did I imagine that my life was about to change in a big, big way.
A Thing is Just a Thing (unless you make it something different)
When you’ve been with someone for 18 years, you tend to collect a lot of things.
Change is Coming
You know what? In the middle of doing my back exercises, I realized something. I hate change. I actually hate everything about it. The uncertainty of it, the learning the new stuff that comes with it, the unpredictability that goes hand-in-hand.
Letting Go of “I Can’t”
This past weekend I went on my first ever yoga retreat and it was truly an incredible experience.
Breakdown or Breakthrough?
The year 2010 was at once the most horrendous year of my life and the most transforming year. In retrospect, I recognize that it actually had to be that bad to get me to move. At the time though, all I knew was that life had become sheer hell.
All of the photos from the book “Unlove.”
A Thank-you to Love
I need to share something with you. I had a life changing experience a couple of weeks ago. I can’t share specifics. What I can tell you is that for a few terrifying moments, I was pretty damn sure I was going to die.
Am I My Own Demographic?
I’m taking a new class called Selling Your Book with Devon Hennig and I am learning so much. Our very first class was about the importance of knowing your demographic. Now, this isn’t the first time I’ve heard about this marketing concept, but I tried not to think about it too much because I didn’t want to write with a demographic in mind. I just want to share my writing and see if I can do something positive with it.
Lessons I’ve Learned (part deux)
Last week I completed week two of the Moksha Yoga Thornhill Morning Challenge, and believe me when I tell you no one is more surprised than me. I’ve learned so many lessons on this journey of pushing myself further than I ever thought I could go, so I thought I would share some of them with you.
Is This the Right Place?
As I was perusing Facebook this morning, I saw a post by Dr. Wayne W. Dyer that caught my sleepy eye. “It might take a year, it might take a day, but what’s meant to be will always find its way.” Wait, WHAT??? “That can’t be true!” I shouted at the post (yes, I’ve been know to shout at Facebook). If that’s true, why would we ever spend any time carefully weighing the pros and cons of our decisions? Why not just throw caution to the wind? If I’m just going to get to where I was always meant to be anyway, why not live life like it was one big Vegas vacation? Then I remembered the night before …
Lessons I’ve Learned (part one)
Last week I told you that I signed up for a 3 week challenge at Moksha Yoga Thornhill. Well, week one is done and there were plenty of lessons to be learned.
Girl on a Beach
Visiting the Pacific Ocean at sunset.
A Small Spark
January 31st, 2014 marks the one year anniversary of the day I released my book “Unlove” in the iBooks store. I have had many happy days in my life, but January 31st, 2013 truly stands out as one of my top 5.
And So it Begins
So, I’ve signed myself up for a 3 week challenge at my hot yoga studio, Moksha Yoga Thornhill. All I have to do is practice daily from Monday to Friday at 6:30am. Not too hard right?
Sightings of Love
Random valentine hearts found in everyday things.
One Foot in Front of the Other
I love Pinterest. It’s so much more than just another social media site. It’s a place to store little bits and pieces of your hopes and dreams. I believe that what you visualize and focus on is what you manifest. I also believe that your thoughts determine your future.
Crap … Now What?
Okay I admit it. I have no frigging clue what I’m doing. I thought writing my first book was hard. I mean I literally spilled my guts onto the pages of my book, and then released those words, and thoughts, and emotions into the world where people I’ve never met can read them and judge them (gasp.)
Chaturanga — My Nemesis (or my greatest teacher)
So here’s the deal: I have been practicing hot yoga at Moksha Yoga North York since August 2011. For a girl who has never been athletic, and who was once 95 kilos at 160 centimeters, going to my first hot yoga class was a very scary proposition.
This has been such an amazing adventure. If you asked me a year ago if I ever thought I would release “Unlove” the answer would have been a definitive “NO!”
“Unlove” now available on Amazon
My book “Unlove” is now available on Amazon!
“Unlove” now available on Apple Books
I’m happy to announce that my first book — “Unlove” — is now available on Apple Books!
From Unlove to Love
I am a new author, publisher, and soon-to-be philanthropist.
Poetry by Despina Michailidis.